disappointed, very

全體運：不按牌理出牌的行為可是會讓你身邊的人大吃一驚的喔
愛情運：對心上人的感情要儘量控制住比較好
金錢運：如果要請客的話 大前提就是不要斤斤計較
工作運：不要一昧堅持己見 有的時候還是把身段放軟一點比較好

been saying that I wanna do that wanna do this for a time...
especially my hair.
But nothing happened, always.
Except German class, that's the one and only "dream" that really happens.

for this long time, I always have excuses for these dreams.
money, time, bla, bla, bla...
none of that really comes out of my mine with plan and exercise.
I know, sometimes, you just need a push.
But you also need a pull while the push is only for a moment.
So I guess I'm just playing game at both side.
But I've been thinking about cutting my hair for a very long time.
though I still got lots of reasons which kept me from doing it.
Now it's facing kinda a middle transfer.
stuck over there, embarrassing moment
not too far, not close yet.
I can't make up mind to change it or save it to the way I dreamed of.

I wonder, does every relationship has the same problem?
Starting from the moment u had ur hair done ,
u feel like someone new again.
Feel pretty, like reborn, receiving all ur confidence and walk out the step with all the charming.
but after days, when it's no longer shining and stunning,
u just gradually return to the one again.
then u'll start to ask urself
: why does this happen again time after time?
is this the truly me , or it's just not what I can decide?

Stay, or NOT stay.
Change, or stay the same?
no matter how hard u work, trying to maintain
things will get to the same point again.
Shall we just let it be,
or shall we never give up and try?